Have you ever laid on your bed at night, and just cried? Cried because you’re ugly.You counted all your flaws from head to toe, to punish and feel worse about yourself. Cried because the comments people blurt out, actually hurt your feelings. Cried because your family is dysfunctional. You don’t want to be a burden, so you bottled it all up

Thursday 17 November 2011

how i wish you were still mine!!

Dah tawar hati dekat lelaki lain so backoff guys ♥ #Sorry guys,do understand me okay :)

Because...........
selasa..2.3op.m::
abgnazmi::salam..aiyu! ayzz..xcdent..come immediely!!
tngan da sjuk..then xsdarkan dri for 25 hours...
rabU::x smpat jmpe..bcoz fmily ayzz ada...
khamis::ayzz pnggil,,ayzz snyum.. ayzz ckp sayg aiyu..so? ap nk wat?snyum blik lorhh..=)
ayzz xley ckp..coz tube bsesak dlam mlut ayzz...ayzz snyum..gigi taring dya chumill...
he my edward..ikikikiki..
jumaat::slpas sbuh, ayzz da xde..Sumpah sedih sgat..!
tpi..aiyu nk ayzz tau..that..ur my LAST BERRYMUNCHYSS....=)

Edited By Him

Copiying Dari Notes Facebook,
Dah Lebih Setahun Arwah Ruth Pergi..
First...
Im Just Okay, Since Kawan Tnya,
"Ayu? Da xingat Ruth ke?"
Macam Satu Tamparan Hebat,
Terima Kasih..
Saya Begini Kerana Arwah..
I did'nt forgetting you Ruth..Never!! :(

you've changed me for the better . you made me realize i am not the only person who is important in this world . you made me have a whole new outlook . i realized it is not all candy and sweets . it is arguing crying and dealing with the worst . but that is life & we al have to get used to it :)

Saya Ingat Lagi, Time Gaduh Dengan kawan skolah Menengah..Arwah baikkan kami balik..
Sumpah Rindu.... :'(


Emmiey Lieya Afeeq Fardhaan Nurizz Safya ..but here is where you all are able to choose.
let's say you're best friends with A, and he/she did 1 mistake, would you still love him/her the way you used to?
let's say you just met A, and you saw him/her at their worst time. would you want to try and learn about it..


Time Photoshoot...



Shee Grand Duchess again, thank you for the pictures darling!! you can see more on Twitter, naturally. heeee.. till next event!! may we meet, lepak, chill and go camwhore together...


Ya Allah...Jauhkan Dia Dari Ingatanku...
Bukan Untuk Dilupakan, Tetapi Pengubat hati...
Sebelum nih , klw aku nak menangis therok2 , aku down therok2 . Aku tww nak call sapa , aku tw nak cerita dekat sapa . Tapi skng , aku rasa lebih baguih aku cerita dekat diri aku sendiri . Sebab orang bukan nak dgq pon apa kita rasa . Tapi bila time depa , tww pulak nak suh dengaq . Takpaa , nanti hgpa susah hgpa cari aku nah ? Tapi aku janji , bila aku susah aku TAKKAN DAH cari sapa2 , mcm skng ni :')



Im not going anywhere . Aku ada , and selalu jaa ada . I just need some space to calm down . Aku perlu masa untuk terima benda yang buat aku btoi2 terkilan kali nie . Bukan aku saja lari dari sapa2 , or aku saja tkmau jumpa sapa2 . Tapi aku mmg perlukan masa . Buddy ,thankyou dekat dah faham apa aku rasa , hanis and aleeya thankyou sebab ada waktu aku betoi2 jatuh mcm skng . and thankyou dkt sapa yang care pasal apa aku rasa . I really appreciate it , and benda tu buat aku jadi makin kuat . Ill b back , tapi tktau bila . Will miss you guys ;)


Aku Yang Dulu..


Selasa16 November 2010: Time tuu ayzz nak pegi penang, aku pun nak ikut jugak..tapi ayzz xbagi..fine, aku mrajuk kejap...kejap aje time tu...Dalam 3jam, Abg Nazmi..Papa Ruth Call..Cakap Ruth Exident, Terkilan Semua ada..Time tu Da hbis SPM,, Ruth Koma...Tangan Dia Sejuk Sangat..Hanya Tuhan Yang Tahu Macam Mana Perasaan Aku Time tu,,


Highway Bukit Mertajam

Khamis: 18 November 2010: Ruth  Da Sedar, Tapi Dia pucat,, Bernafas Pun Guna Oxigen Tube..Ruth Senyum...Comel..Nampak gigi Taring Dia..:) Ruth Dah Boleh Makan, Tapi Bnda yang Lembut aje..

Jumaat:  19 November 2010 Hari Yang Bersejarah, Ruth Meninggal pukul Dalam pkul 5.15am..Fareez Ambil ayu Dari Rumah ke Penang..pkul 12pm dyorang simpan ruth..

Sampai sekarang, aku tak tahu na buat apa?
Dari Luaran aku Memang Ceria..
Banyak kali aku cuba untk terima orang lain dalam hidup..
tapi aku tak boleh..
banyak yang aku cuba...
Tapi Semuanya Atas Nafsu..
Aku taknak..Aku Nak Ruth..Aku Rindu dia sangat-sangat..


Aku harap, Aku dapat Hindari Ego aku..bila Arwah Ruth Pernah tegur..Jangan Terlalu Ego Ya Ayu...
Baiklah...Ayu Akan Cuba, InsyaAllah..



Arwah Ruth

I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. :)


Photo Ni aku ambil Daripada Fareez...

Alfatihah
Almarhum Muhd Ruthdan Akmal Bin Mad Nazmi

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